|Whats the story behind torque?|
Intervention was on at work while i was doodling dis heavily modified girl and this episode had a couple who were addicted to heroin. i was texting Ejay how fucked up i thought this was adorable and of course he had to make an addict couple.
i’m TOTALLY ignoring all my spelling mistakes here too this time.
she isn’t as thought out as Moth and she’s actually hard to describe!
Torque suffers from anorexia and bulimia, which ontop of her other health troubles it gives her heroin addiction a power boost. she has a lost all her body hair, her eyebrows, the hair on her head is frail and falling out, her teeth are loosening and rotting, her throat is always inflamed and bleeding, wounds/brusies seem to never heal, she has no menstrual cycle, her nose is always running, dry mouth and really this list goes on forever.
she’s extremely self destructive, but worse when she’s going through withdrawal because it brings out the self mutiltation and compulsive picking.
her parents want her home and she’s been in and out of rehab with little success. they still offer to pay for everything and try to get her to a doctor but she never accepts.
she’s techinically homeless but not really since she usually always has a couch to sleep on, mainly in one run down abandoned house that a bunch of other bums and addicts crash at. but it wouldn’t be unusual to find her sleeping on a bench because she felt like it.
her family was normal, she grew up without issue, abuse or tragedy other than the /slight/ pressure in having her go to dance/singing classes, not letting her dress how she wanted too all the time and disliking some people she wanted to hang out with but this is pretty normal shit for any family. if anything they were pretty wealthy and she used to be pretty normal. her family roots go to New Zeland, specifically of the Maori people which is why she has those tattoos even though she obviously doesnt deserve to have them.
as a teenager, this is usually when people try to start ‘finding’ themselves and Torque was pretty obsessed with it. she never had felt like she belonged in anywhere, she didn’t really like or hate anything, nothing really bothered her, etc and this ‘diyphoria’ about everything bothered her. so she rebelled a little, just the usual dressing in black, dying/cutting her hair and whatnot but despite doing what she thought she wanted to do was making her dysphoria worse.
she developed an eating disorder for thinking maybe she just wasn’t thin enough and because the exhaustion and hunger at least made her feel something. everything ‘normal’ was uninteresting to her so she gradually got into a more gothy phase with more piercings and such, hanging out with an unfluencing ‘wrong’ crowd and so on.
she snagged an apprenticeship as a piercer with a tattoo palor when she was 16 and her mods took off from there, as well when she started to experiment with drugs.
Torque quickly got into the harder stuff and already her health had been taking on a toll due to her anorexia and bulemia. she was there for a few years until they either got shut down due to fucking up all the time and health violations, or she was fired for shooting up and she shakes a lot so i don’t imagine piercings going all that well. she got most of her body mods here but she still continues to get them when she can.
after that, she left home to just squat around and she landed a job in some summer carnival that happened every year. no idea what she did but she could fit into the freakshow catagory but there she met another carnie named Dragon there. his nickname is Dragon because 1) his animal-self is a komodo dragon(torque is an iguana btw) and 2) he smells awful, especially his breath. hence ‘dragon breath’.
Dragon works the rides and petting zoo, usually drunk, always harassing women, sleeping with everyone, forever being a douchebag and a general sleazebag. they dated and Torque thought she was happy but it still didn’t bring her any feelings so they didn’t last, and despite Dragon’s wishes he could not get her to stay with the circus year-round because at least then she’d have somewhere to live. BUT NOPE she left and for the sake of thinking children with tattoos is hilarious, Torque got pregnant, she’s an awful mother who’s dysphoria prevented her from feeling any compassion, love or anything nuturing to it so her parents took care of him until next summer where she went back to the circus to visit dragon and sort of was just like, “ahaa.. yeah.. been awhile.. oh yeah i have your kid. want it?”
So the kid went to Dragon. despite being a scumbag and letting his kid get tattooed when he’s like five, he’s like the best-awful-dad ever who loves his son.
Torque went back to bumming around couches, still shooting up and her health still declined, and again the next year she visited and her and a drunk Dragon got into an argument about something(or Dragon did, because Torque can’t put in the effort to argue) and he smashed her her face with a bottle. originally the reason why her one eye is so fucked up is because a pony kicked her but i went with Dragon doing it anyway even though he’s not suppose to be abusive. w/e he was wasted and frustrated with Torque because he or anyone else doesn’t understand why Torque is like this and it upsets him she doesn’t love her own kid or anyone else for that matter.
Torque obvis doesn’t care about him doing that because she still vists and works there every year.
even with severely declining health, Torque seems pretty damn happy and content with everything and the only thing she thinks is wrong with herself is her zero-to-nothing self esteem. she can’t say she’s miserable because she just barely has the ability to feel anything be it anger, despair, joy, misery, etc.
she’s a slow talker, really drags out her words and breathing. she walks slow, moves slow, and she sways/rocks all the time. she’s constantly cold because of her weight and that she’s actually cold-blooded(her animal self is an iguana), and drugs are what keeps her warm.
Torque is oddly upbeat and extremely socialable. she talks to anyone or anything, and you can easily find her rambling on about nothing to strangers who are clearly uncomfortable and if you walk away from her, she’ll just talk to herself like a sad, demented old woman. she can do this for hours and you won’t think she’s really talking about anything, but if you actually have the time and patience to listen you’ll find out that Torque is actually not the idiot she appears to me, and what she’s talking about is usually pretty fucking sad and depressing. she just doesn’t talk bluntly about things so its pretty subtle, and takes awhile for it to come together and make sense.
she’s super non-violent and pretty damn friendly, just most people are freaked out and disgusted by her because of how she looks and while she bathes regularly, she always smells like chemicals with the faint scent of vomit.
sticking around her can be amusing because she likes to sing amusing songs even though her throat is all fucked up, dances and just does some stupid shit. she’ll also wear girlier clothes like dresses sometimes and if you ignore that she’s basically dying its pretty amusing how she doesnt take anything seriously.
she is sort of a douchebag though. she chuckles slowly all the time, cracks jokes, makes fun of people and purposely annoys them but she’s not remotely dangerous, and she doesn’t actually mean to hurt anyone.
her friends come and go, some die because most of them are homeless or addicts, she’ll see her son change every summer while he grows up without her, and she will eventually OD for the ten thousandth time or her body will finally shut down and thats the end of Torque.
just her entire existence had been meaningless because of her dysphoria and all she could do is watch people pass by and wonder what it must like to feel something.